Hi there I would like to keep my name and info private:
Im a X muslim who left around 3 yrs ago and around 8 months ago fell in love with a Christian girl.
At this time I was living with my family and my parents were not happy and asked me to chose between the girl and her
I thought of this to be a chance to move out on my own and persue relationship with my girlfriend. (Mind u I always wanted to move out on my own).
So I moved close to my girlfriend and my parents were not happy at all, the sacrifice I made was that I gave up my family for the girl and I gave up my travel time to work ( used to live 10 mins from work now my travel time is 90 min public transit).
Now my girlfriend and I were together 8 months but unfortunately we parted ways to due differences.
The main problem I do miss my family and little nephew/ nieces alot and ive realized my travel time to work is wearing me down cause I do take public transportation
Ive been trying to save for a car but its been more challenging since ive moved out my expanses have increased.
Moreover my family was not talking to me at all but now they are and they are aware im not talking to the girl anymore,
They said in order for me to come back in the house I have re accept islam and say the shaahdah in front of all them also I have to drop on my knees and apologize to my parents and everyone else.
They also said as long im not Muslim I cant come or touch the kids but im also concerned of what to do and the options I have. .
Im really confused whether to continue living on my own or just listen to my family but I'm aware of how controlling they are and if I accept it can get worse
What do I do? ?