It is a game, Mr. Wootah. I followed a religion for all my life, and recently left it. I do not need to dwell in questions, as I should not have any questions to begin with. If there is a creator, he would have been there. We don't have a powerful king, who does not rule, and hides until we die. All we have are scriptures that came to be. Yes, there are the authenticity of such scriptures, but they do not have any concrete proof. I try to read websites, and it the same thing. God will present himself, to whoever is sincerely looking. I don't want to play mind games, or feel emptiness, before I get my proof. I need it now more than ever, now that I feel lost.
Before, I was a guy who could fall on something. Now, I have no barrier. I cannot honestly say, that a really poor guy, wise at heart will go to heaven, and neither can I claim that a free life rapper or rock star will face the punishment for wasting excess wealth. With me, I only have a conscience which religion shaped for me all those years. That's all. I am not here to have rage, and anger, but rather to find the truth. Like a cave this life is, and I am still lost.
"Do you remember what you told me once? That every passing minute is a another chance to turn it all around" - Vanilla Sky
"If I could just go back... if I could rub everything out... starting with myself" - The Talented Mr. Ripley