story of a born apostate

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kinjicki
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Here is my story as promised.

I was born to Pakistani parents, I had a fairly normal upbringing, as a child I wanted desperately to learn about everything. My family were happy to indulge me and taught me to read and write the Arabic alphabet while I was still quite young. Around the age of six I was sent to a local Quran class that took place in the back room of some woman's house, I'd heard that you had to keep your head covered all the time you were there and if you didn't remember what you were supposed to be reading you would get hit. Naturally I hated the idea of this and put up a fight but to no avail. It was as awful as it sounded. I don't know how it works everywhere else, but in this place we were given a line of Arabic to 'read', no explanation as to what it was we were saying, just repeat it over and over again for a hour every afternoon that felt like eternity. When I questioned my family as to what it all meant they wouldn't tell me, when I refused to go again, I was told all sorts of horror stories about hell and the like. I reluctantly went back but refused to wear the headscarf. Men didn't wear it, boys didn't wear it, none of my friends in school wore it so I wasn't wearing it! My grandfather eventually convinced the woman running the classes to allow me to wear a hat, and so I continued for a few years.

We eventually left that town and moved to a place with no other Muslim families, I learnt so much I the new town, it was like a sanctuary away from the stifling religion, Arabic lessons continued at home, but again I fought against them, I didn't why I didn't want to learn but it always felt wrong to me.

Anyway...fast forward 10 years and I went off the rails. My parents thought I was out of control and suggested maybe I would like to get married instead of continuing with my education. The thought of being married to a Muslim man absolutely mortified me, I couldn't live the rest of my life in Islam and I certainly couldn't inflict it on any children I had. I got into a relationship with a non muslim man and left home at 18. I eventually married him and had a child. When my parents found me I was 7 months pregnant. My mother told me to have an abortion and wished awful things on the baby. I told them I wouldn't and eventually they left, saying I was no longer their daughter. When I gave birth I called my parents to tell them I'd had a daughter, they offered to take her and raise her if I would come home but I couldn't do that. Over the years there were lots of tears and arguments, I eventually divorced my husband and moved into my own place, again, my parents asked me to come home, they'd gotten more and more religious over the years, even moving back to a town with a lot of other Muslims around.

My story may not seem like one of the other apostates on here, but I have never believed in Islam and certainly don't think walking around a box in the desert and kissing a rock is what god would want of his creations, let alone the praying 5 times, covering women, allowing men to have 4 wives and believing Mohammed was the 'perfect man'.

Religion has always been the point at which my family and I differ. They believe the Quran is the book from god, I always thought it was nonsense, the main point in it being the treatment of women, along with the intolerance of anyone who isn't a Muslim. I always believed god would love all people, no matter what their faith was and I found this to be the case when I read the bible. I am hoping to get baptised soon and be free of the darkness of Islam for good.

Thanks for reading, sorry if I've bored anyone!
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Hi kinjicki -
Many thanks for telling your story (and not at all boring!).

Sheesh..... Islam just screws things up so much, ay. It really messes with people's minds.
So much pain and hassle, and all so unnecessary. :cry:
- enceladus
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Thanks for reading enceladus,

It's so messed up isn't it, sometimes I wonder what would happen if ole' mo was around today, I think he'd be locked in a mental institution and those that are Muslims today would be something less destructive, maybe we would be somewhere close to world peace!

I've seen Islam destroy everything it touches, people, places, lives. It needs to stop.
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kinjicki wrote:Thanks for reading enceladus,

It's so messed up isn't it, sometimes I wonder what would happen if ole' mo was around today, I think he'd be locked in a mental institution and those that are Muslims today would be something less destructive, maybe we would be somewhere close to world peace!

I've seen Islam destroy everything it touches, people, places, lives. It needs to stop.
Thank you for sharing your story. You said it well. I always believed that, if the Quran were to be published today, it would be classified as hate literature. I agree that Islam is the problem.
वासुदैव कुटुम्बकम्।
سارا سنسار ایک پریوار ہے۔
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Nice story! I hope now that you have realized dangers of islam ,you will stick around here and help us defeating this evil.
Look around yourself and you'll find people with virtues are never required to demand respect since they automatically earn it. It is only those that are devoid of any virtues need to threaten and bully to gain respect. Needless to say that quran cannot be from God.
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Indeed I will!

Weird thing is for the last 15 years I thought I was the only one who thought it was a steaming pile of crap, how wrong I was! Thank for the welcome!
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are u living in pakistan ?????
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I don't think I'd be here now if I went anywhere near Pakistan! :???: I'm in the UK
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kinjicki wrote:Indeed I will!
Weird thing is for the last 15 years I thought I was the only one who thought it was a steaming pile of crap, how wrong I was! Thank for the welcome!
May be you never interacted with non muslims and were always surrounded by muslims who never critically examined islam. Anyway It takes courage to go against what is being taught to you from childhood so I have to give you credit here .

To any non muslim such as myself Quran is an obvious piece of sh!t! Even when I read the quran first time, I could not read it at a stretch. I really wondered as to how people can believe in such a poorly written book. I mean come on, even a 4th or 5th grade student can do a better job. It is a grave insult to anyone's intelligence when he/she is asked to acknowledge quran as a piece of wisdom or guidance.
Look around yourself and you'll find people with virtues are never required to demand respect since they automatically earn it. It is only those that are devoid of any virtues need to threaten and bully to gain respect. Needless to say that quran cannot be from God.
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skynightblaze wrote:
kinjicki wrote:Indeed I will!
Weird thing is for the last 15 years I thought I was the only one who thought it was a steaming pile of crap, how wrong I was! Thank for the welcome!
May be you never interacted with non muslims and were always surrounded by muslims who never critically examined islam. Anyway It takes courage to go against what is being taught to you from childhood so I have to give you credit here .

To any non muslim such as myself Quran is an obvious piece of sh!t! Even when I read the quran first time, I could not read it at a stretch. I really wondered as to how people can believe in such a poorly written book. I mean come on, even a 4th or 5th grade student can do a better job. It is a grave insult to anyone's intelligence when he/she is asked to acknowledge quran as a piece of wisdom or guidance.

On the contrary, I stayed away from Muslims outside of the family, I put up with that nonsense at home, I definitely wasn't going to put up with it outside of home!

I'm glad I did and grateful that my parents were welcoming to all my friends regardless of religion, it got more difficult as I got older with relatives asking why I didn't have Muslim friends, but it was pretty easy to explain as we were the only Muslim family in town!
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Three cheers for kinjicki. Hip, hip, hooray! Hip, hip, hooray! Hip, hip, hooray! :*)
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